These writings are written by human, and polished by Chatgpt (in terms of grammar only).

[2025/5/31] About Inspiration

Human aim to preserve knowledge via various format. Thus the later generation could build upon their legacy and achieve something greater faster. Knowledge preserved could be used by: (1) Using it as underlying assumption and prove a new theory, (2) modifying the original knowledge and create a new theory, and (3) using the knowledge to build tools that create a new theory. The ultimate goal is to create something better for the human spieces to survive. However, knowledge is not accessible to anyone at anytime. The segregation of knowledge made knowledge itself into a form of authority and power. And thus, how knowledge is preserved reflects a social token. It could be locked into restricted libraries, or written in a way that powers authority. So, when we are gaining knowledge, we are not only gaining a survival kit, but also are we constructing our social identity, or how we would explain the world around us.

In other words, if an individual is creating something that allows others to learn, to build upon or to construct their social identity, that individual is, to some extent, building knowledge. To do better work, knowledge should be carefully crafted. But to construct social identity, knowledge could be a loosely form of art that inspires the audience. As much as I would like to argue that one form is better than the other, I also do believe the world would always be filled with a balance of both.

In short, I hope what I do here, would qualify as being an inspiration for others.

[2025/7/21] About Becoming a Middle Manager

Ha. Surprise. Six months into my first full-time job, I found myself unexpectedly stepping into a role that resembled middle management, the product of a lean team and a fast-paced environment.

This shift taught me a key difference between owning a task and owning a project. As a task owner, your focus is execution: delivering a clear output with quality and efficiency. But as a project lead, your job is no longer just about doing. It’s about enabling others to do. The company no longer pays you to shine individually, but to ensure the whole system moves forward. Your success is measured by how well you manage people, timelines, and expectations.

At first, this was uncomfortable. As someone still learning the ropes, my instinct when joining a new project was to try to master every task myself. I wanted to understand how everything worked—to be able to step in, fix things, and prove my value. But I quickly realized that being an effective manager required a different approach: stepping back, planning ahead, and identifying who is best positioned to handle each part of the project.

The hardest part is undoubtedly delegating complex tasks I wanted to learn. It felt like giving up a chance to grow. Eventually, I still aim to become someone who can both lead effectively and perform exceptionally. So I plan to learn from those who perform these tasks better than me. Learn by observing, asking questions, and hopefully taking a small chunck of task back for myself. Afterall, it's all about balancing. Knowing when's the right time to do the right thing - knowing when to delegate, when to take back the tasks and execute on my own.

May our life is a continuous learning journey. And may we find joy in such process.

[2025/7/26] About AI startups

Jotting down some thoughts:

1. VC investors are look at financial models more than before for AI startups.
2. Vibe coding startups will not become decade living companies. Most of them will die, while the lucky ones will be acquired.
3. All the LLM applications will slowly be merged with the top tech companies. The market will slowly become oligopoly.

[2025/8/2] About the Art of Client Communication

My communication workflow with client is: 1.Understand the person I'm talking to: Who do they report to? How much power do they have in making decisions that matter to me? How familiar are they to my business? What's their personality? 2.Understand the business: Why do they want to have business with me? What's the story? Do they have other stakeholders they want to please? How many stakeholders are there? What's the relationship between each stakeholder? What challenges are they facing? Which stakeholder would be influenced the most, and are they important to me? 3.Set boundaries: What is the greatest good for me? What is the worst? Which stakeholders would be affected? How do I make them stand by my side?

Currently, my short-term goal is to do the least work but get the best outcome/recognition by my client and relevant stakeholder. This could be done by expectation management, focusing on fewer things but investing most energy in the things that matter.

Making deals with another human being means that nothing is objective. Everything could be twisted and explained in multiple ways that benefit specific stakeholders. Therefore, a win-win situation is never being "reached," but rather "created." The process of achieving "win-win" is a power play competition that forces or frames the opponent to believe a different narrative of their story.

[2025/9/14] 關於未必存在的真理

世界應當如何? 每一代有每一代擬出答案的方式。因爲不論用什麽方式，我們都不能放棄參與這個變化、不能放棄思考。

[2025/10/12] About Politics

Politics seem complicated but stem from utterly simple principles. It closely relate with the origin of a person and what they depend on for survival. 政治看似複雜，但我認爲其本質非常單純——關乎一個人的出生，以及他賴以生存的方式。

[2026/1/6] About Techniques of Being a Market Researcher & Consultant

Due to the nature of my job, I am thinking a lot about what it means to be a good market researcher and a good consultant.

To be a good market researcher is to align myself with how social science academia conducts research: doing work that is solid and objective, from sampling and interviewing to data analysis.

To be a good consultant is to align myself with how a McKinsey consultant presents. This means being obsessively—almost to the point of sickness—attentive to formatting details, while also being highly narcissistic about how a story should be told. You can probably tell I am not a fan. I admire how the top-down / bottom-up rhetoric sounds perfectly structured, while in reality it is often about being so confident in the constructed narrative that contradictory elements are left out and only what “makes sense” is highlighted. I do believe that this approach simplifies the storyline and makes it easy to comprehend without needing someone to present it live. Of course, there is also the craft of “counter-argument → rebuttal” and “data-supported argument,” which gives the story its sense of rigor and solidity.

[2026/1/14] 關於存在主義危機

最近時不時會突然陷入一種存在的空虛感。

通常是在有需要我做、但我不想做的任務，且我認爲我做和不做并不會對這件事有太大的影響的時候。

我想它應該叫做存在主義危機。

這不是我第一次面對這樣的危機。

大學期間，當我準備期末考的時候，也會在熬夜的夜晚，懵懵地看著我堆滿書和筆記的書桌——大腦突然一片空白，世界突然距離我很遙遠——用英文說，應該就叫做 "blanked out"。

活著的意義是什麽呢？

我早早地就認定活著本沒意義。活著的意義就是活著本身。

我可以接受他人的生命就是這樣無意義地存在在這個世界。

但是當我意識到，我的生命也是這樣無意義地存在的時候，

所有主觀的感受和批判和“理性”的決策，突然變得不再重要、像一層霧一樣飄渺。

如果我的存在等於 我什麽都可以做，

那我現在在做什麽？

我爲何要做自己不想做的事情呢？

特別是在不做的情況下、我的世界不會毀滅的前提下。

寫到這裏，我覺得這個想法真是最童真的存在主義危機。

我缺乏的僅僅只是與世界溝通、協調的能力和自信。

但，我想，是的、我應該是累了。

我的身心俱疲，因此我無法想象自己提起精神，和世界協調的樣子。

所以疲憊的人，應當受到與疲憊相符的待遇。

慢慢地休息就好。

[2026/2/1] 關於衰老

有時候很難解釋我對 “衰老” 這個議題情有獨鍾的原因————就像我大學時期對神經科學不計結果的偏愛。

不過試試也不會少塊肉，所以有了以下内容：

“衰老”本身帶有命運的悲劇色彩。它帶有“自殺”的意味。衰老的人、不論願意與否，都要迎接生命的終結。

“衰老”是荒謬的。在人類不能年輕地永生的現代，衰老的人必須面對自己日漸行動不便的身軀、以及逐漸模糊的精神意志。衰老的人面對的敵人是“死亡”————而以現代的科技，這個敵人是無敵的。因此衰老的人會在試圖反抗死亡的途中，慢慢地脚步變得沉重而緩慢————“死亡”這個敵人比西西弗裏的石頭還可惡，它不僅會一次又一次地滾下來、甚至會越來越重，直到西西弗裏再也沒有力氣推動。

衰老的人不存在要“反抗”的外在對象，衰老的人只能將反抗帶到内在。

因此，衰老是比荒謬更爲荒謬的存在。

衰老，是人、不論願意與否，必須接受的自殺形式的命運。

衰老的終極課題，是接受衰老、是像迎接一個客人一樣地迎接死亡。

而活著，就是反其道而行。這不荒謬嗎？我們一直到完全死去的那一刻前，都要以創造者的心態去活著————不論是爲了一個目標、還是爲了活著而活著。但我們也要隨時做好切換成迎接死亡的態度。

而在現實生活裏，這個切換的頻率、深淺、時機，更爲奧妙難解。

畢竟衰老沒有規律，也不是綫性的發展。就像死亡一樣充滿了不確定性。

因此，我經常思考衰老，爲了自己的大腦可以儘快適應衰老。

我想，這是每個人都要做的事情。每個人都要找到自己理解衰老的方式。

畢竟，理解了自己對死亡的態度，才能不愧于自己對生活的熱愛吧。